Thursday, June 23, 2011

Anger Management

I need anger management.

I am getting angry easily..
Once I find things wasn't going the way I wanted I get irritated!

God please help me on this.. I don't want to go on like this

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Fuck the world

Fuck it! Fuck it! Fuck it!

Why do I get angry so easily!! why on earth do I have to go through all of these..

For no reason at all I get irritated over one small thing, but yet for stupid DH I have to put on a fake smile, wearing a stupid hat smiling and agreeing to what all the world have to say.

Why am I being so sensitive? why does it come at the end of my pregnancy? Why is everybody giving me a hard time?

Sometimes I wished I wasn't in this situation, I wished to be alone! I want to be alone and enjoy the loneliness, and have my dogs around me. I want to have a cigarette, so I could take things away from my mind. I wished someone could be here with me instead I am being left alone to deal with all the unfamiliar surrounding. I am forced to drive a fucking manual car, forced to take care of another person and being forced to live in a fucking small town where I am bound by directions, cause I don't know which fucking way I have to go.

Fuck it~ fuck the world. Fuck everything. I wished I could go to church, I wished I was back in the goddamn familiar place, I wished I could runaway, and have my daughter in some faraway land. Where nobody knows me and have the whole world searching for me!! Damn all this.. Damn all the fucking thing in this world.

Of all the person, I thought he should understand but instead what he gave in respond is not something I want. As if I cared. I don't fucking give a shit. FUCK OFF

Fuck Off

Recently my emotional well being has reached a peak whereby I get irritated easily. I don't get along with anybody which I usually do, and I get annoyed easily.

Can somebody please tell me what's wrong? I am coming to the end of my pregnancy, currently 38 weeks, another 2 more weeks, could this be the reason I get irritated easily? I am like a balloon bursting anytime. Oh God, please help me on this!!

I hate it when people bossed me around, I get annoyed when I see this stupid three year old with fucking bad manners who scream and kicked when his parents tell him NO; picking food out of the freshly served dish makes me want to slap his head over and over!! I hate kids with behavior issues, his parents should have discipline him like a dog!!

My tummy is small and everybody is picking on it. SO WHAT? MIL asked me to eat more, everyday she would call and say : eat more, eat more! WTF, excuse me I don't like to stuffed myself like a turkey and I am definitely not like you! She eats like a cow and I am no cow.

Had been arguing with DH. In my mind I have already planned out what I wanted to do in life but one freaking word he just came and crushed it! OK great!!! It's my life and I should be the one in control but instead this monster just invade my life like nobody's business and start bossing me around telling what to do and what not to do! I hate to stuck in this stupid small town, with an old bat and I hate every single thing here!!!!!! fuck it, fuck all this.

God if You are listening, please take all this problem away from me. I hate it when my mind just act like a TNT and like it's gonna explode sooooon!! FUCK EVERYTHING

Tuesday, June 21, 2011








不要以为我怕你。大不了我自己养大孩子,靠你我自己死的难看 ~

Saturday, June 18, 2011






Tuesday, June 14, 2011


现在的我,在老公的家乡SITIAWAN代产 ~ 回来已经一个礼拜多了。


驾了几天,开始有点熟悉了!只是方向盘没有power steering,有点难转。




呆呆的过了23年 ~ 跟一个傻男人过了六年。