Fucked up?!

How can so many things happened at this time???

God, can't you see that we are trying to squeeze everything in one tiny little box!

How can such thing happened in times like this???

I've had enough troubles with my parents ~ and they are my family!

I want to be there at least once for them!!!

Is that too much to ask??????

God, if You are listening, please make all these possible!

往事

有些事情过了，却会留下疤痕。

我难过，却不要留念。

你留给我的痛却不像删除照片

按下删除键就可以消失了！

我能够原谅这一切，却永远不会忘记你当天让我留过的泪

也不会忘记那天心在血泊里挣扎的画面。

Rants

I don't know why I even get mad at the first place...

Fuck me and my jealousy!!!

I hate you and I hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

实兆远 - 我的另外一个家。

(用了人家的图片。自己没有拍到）

当开车离开它的时候就好像回到当初从保佛回亚庇的心情。

沉重，也充满了不舍得。

或许我就喜欢小地方的单纯吧。

讨厌大地方的喧闹，讨厌它自然环境的不自然。

树木都理的干净，好不自然哦！

看不到甘榜路，看不到木屋，

更吃不到只有马来西亚才有的美食。

更重要的是，看不到小时候的回忆。

新加坡，一个忙碌的地方 ~ 讨厌这样的步调。

人在新加坡，心却还是那么的想家。:D

出去走走

前几天回了老公的家乡，准备了结婚的东西。

其实，也没有想象中那么忙。

有点无奈的是，几个人几个想法，把老公原定的计划改变了。

本来设计这样的，却因为大人们的想法统统变了。

不过幸好坚持了mattress 的款式。

其实真的很懒惰再换了！

哎 ~ 但是也好啦。至少装修我还算满意。:)

自由。

自由：自己存在的理由。

原来自由就是这么一回事 ~

可是还是不明白自己存在到底是为了什么。

是时候开始告诉自己或许我得离开这样的一个陷阱 ~ 不该跟别人比较些什么。

我是被爱的，我是与众不同的。

笑笑。加油哦！

My Little Surprise

2010 has marked a great year for me.. I've been through more than I could handle this year.

All the bittersweet memory in this year although forgiven yet I believe will not easily forgotten..

This year I've been on an emotional roller coaster ride ~ But I will take this as a great lesson of my life. :) I'm glad things finally came to an end and I will make sure things like these will not happened again.

Yet nothing beats the biggest surprise I received earlier this month and I am pretty sure God is trying to prove to me His greatness. Which I have no doubt or whatsoever. :D

This tiny little big surprise God has given me makes me realize I can't stay a kid forever and I'm glad He made it happened.

For what I wanted the most for this moment is that.. this baby will grow up healthy and beautifully. Will go for an ultrasound 1st of Dec ~ I can't wait to see baby peanut. :D

P/s: We have always loved you even before you were conceived, and names have been carefully chosen two years before your arrival. What I want now is for you to grow up healthily as a wonderful baby. :) Love, Mommy.

想太多

“那些想太多的人，有生之年也不会明白”

因为爱，所以爱 - 谢霆锋

很喜欢这句话。 N年前听了这首歌，喜欢旋律也喜欢歌词

表面上是懂歌词要表达些什么，不过却不能体会。

N年后，爱了人，被爱了，被伤了，被考验了

总算明白这首歌的意思。

特别喜欢这句，因为若连爱一个人都要考虑许多的事情

那个人有生之年也不会明白爱的真正意思。

我冲动，因为我不想后悔；我执著，因为我想要体会。

若今天我不知道答案，或许明天我就会带着遗憾离开。:)

喜喜

明年要结婚咯。

嘻嘻~~

终于我们的人生要开始走向另外一段旅程。

婚姻不是爱情的坟墓，我反而觉得是爱情的天堂。

为什么呢？因为啊 婚后会有很多的变化，因此而考验我们的耐心。

当我们能够携手共度这些难关，我们可能就走到了这个幸福的山丘 ~

我从不奢望老公能够给我什么鲜花，烛光晚餐 - 因为我知道他的个性不适合耍什么浪漫，而自己要求实际。只希望在十年，二十年以后我们还可以像当初那样手牵手过马路。

爱情本来就该简单平凡的，不需要他天天在耳边说我爱你，也不用他不厌其烦的陪你逛街。

最让人羡慕的爱情或许就是，两个人只要对望一眼就知道自己在对方心中的地位。

年少疯狂

年少有谁不疯狂的...?

还记得自己 15岁去纹身, 被发现了差一点让父母连皮都割下来..

还记得自己第一个喜欢的对象, 下课一直在寻找的影子..

还记得跟朋友一起补习, 去买零食的杂货店..

还记得那间常混的漫画店...

还记得偷偷去市区闲逛的日子 ..

好多的记得记得. 藏在回忆, 始终珍惜.

Progressed!

Yeah, I've made a progress!

This is my 11th post..

I'm going to keep going.

Blogging I realise is just to keep people update with trivial stuff..

Not much of a "vomit-your-heart-out" kinda thing.

Nothing much to say though...

Another Day

I am supposed to be in class today, but instead decided to be a bad girl, I slept in a bit.

Then my mind is on a war whether or not to go to class, but the devil within me won.
I've decided to skip class..

BUT,
Even if I do skipped classes, I want to promise myself that I will study hard for the exams
Just like what I did for my last semester.

Good luck ;)

Vivi, you can do it.

Quitting Facebook

There are perhaps thousands of reasons for me to quit facebook, but none of them beat the number one. that is Privacy.

I realised that, people add to just "monitor" your life, even some of them which they knew perfectly well that you hate them to the core.

Ok, I admit that there are times where I added someone to my friendlist with intention that I can at least get something out of their profile. but I haven't done that in ages.

Facebook is a scary place.. It's no longer a social networking space instead it's full of scandals. People monitor your life, people virtually stalk you and you will not be surprise by how much they know you just by clicking the linked site to your blog, which you have by any means wants to show others. So.. it's dangerous.

I hate it so much that some are actually using these social networking site to violate other people's privacy, by telling tales which are not true, which are pure guessing work.

But, what can we do?
We have already given others permission to enter our world when we clicked yes.

Reading

I love reading a lot..

Yes I do love reading a lot.

No joke, I don't like reading but instead I LOVE reading.

*OK, enough of emphasizing* :P

I felt that, each page I turned gives me space to wonder

My mind is brought away by the wind of fantasy..

It is a great experience..

wonderful and mesmerizing.

That's why I love reading.

铭心

其实我很有想法，不过它们都很无聊。

有时，静静的，脑海里面就会浮现许多的观点。

觉得还满不可思议的。

常常这些观点能够让我领悟许多

不过有时候它却能够让我考虑许多 - 说白了：想太多。

这个部落格里，曾经给过我一个伤害。

我本来没有考虑那么多，把一些东西放用了很直接的方式表露。

是我的错吗？

不过现在想想，也都过了。

我原谅了

如果某一天你还会浏览我的部落格的话。

请记得：有些东西别人写写也就算了。

虽然网上写这些就等于没有私隐

不过有时候PO上来会有人因此而找到共鸣。

自己。

天空本来可以很蓝的

可是却因为一时的失误

顿时失去了太阳

黑云很快侵袭。

所以：无风不起浪 这句话很对。

有时候我却总是那阵狂风

掀起那朵浪花。

可悲却不可笑。

重新出发。

因为之前的点点滴滴 遭到某人的污染

我决定重新出发 再写部落格。

本来好不容易累积到的页数 因别人的侵入 不得已要删除。

以后这里将会是我的心情，我的感觉。

以后将会以自己的风格 呈现属于我的世界。

欢迎到来。