沿路的领悟。

今天别与以往，选择走路回家。短短的十分钟，但是感觉自己在这路途中领悟了许多。

很多时候我在想，是自己的心态吗？还是我只是没有办法认同别人的做事方法？
或许两者都有吧。说真的，自己还蛮自我的。
很多时候，当事情发生在我控制以外的范围，我就变的很歇斯底里。
当别人的决定，不是我所想要的时候我就开始钻牛角尖了。想多多！
但是庆幸的是，我很快看开！而且很快就能恢复原本的自己。
好笑吧？这就是我。

能够真正走进我生活的人其实不多。我承认自己没有办法接受一些人！
你们应该都有过类似的经历吧。
好像一些人，跟他们谈天能够一见如故，然而有一些人只能当点头之交。
在我生活中也常遇到这样的人。

说我为人犯贱，说我心中狭窄也好，有一些人跟他们相遇也只能点到为止。
但是能够触动我心的人，我可以跟他们谈很多，分享很多。

典型水瓶座的我，内心就好像瓶子一样。
当你穿过瓶颈，把手再往里面伸，其实你会发现我肚子里装满奇怪的想法。
所以，当别人从外表评估我是个怎么样的人时候，我会变的很纳闷。或许我讨厌被归类吧！
我会纳闷一些自以为很了解，自以为自己能够一眼看穿我的人对我下评论，就算是小事情我也会郁闷一阵。小气哦？

最近发现自己又再次沉醉在自己的空间里面了。
已经很久没有这样的感觉了！距离上次的隔离，应该有好几年了吧？
我好爱这样的隔离哦。让自己的思绪没有约束的蔓延，嗯，挺有意思的。
有时候就连某某人都万般感慨的告诉我：我真的搞不懂你在想什么！
其实不需要懂。只能说，我没有办法接受别人约束我的思想。
这最后一片净土，我想选择保留。至少在这边，我能够让自己沉淀一下下。
把负面的经过过滤，埋起来。其实就像人体一样，需要排毒。过不久再给你一个全新的我。

LIfe

Life is always full of mystery...

especially how we were conceived and being brought into this world.

I never fully appreciate what life is until this little human started growing in my womb.

It's amazing to see how your baby grow each day, from a tiny little embryo into a fully form fetus and then coming out to greet this world in a human form. As each day passes by they grow up, giving you different kind of experience..

I still remembered that day when I found out I was pregnant with Baby Ezra. I took a pregnancy test and it showed a faint pink line, thrilled I called Hubby and sent him a picture, he wasn't so sure either. In total I took four pregnancy test, 2 with faint line and 2 without anything. But I was positively sure I am pregnant! Then it was confirmed on Nov 3rd. Although initially Doc did an ultrasound which didn't showed anything, he asked me to go for a urine test.. Well, I guess you know the results. I was 4 weeks pregnant!! The looked on our faces just, the feeling is just so overwhelming, Hubby was smiling non stop and he practically told EVERYONE about it.

Went for a monthly scan a month later on Dec 1st and saw the baby for the first time. She was so small and Doc did a doppler scan, we listened as her heart beats 179bpm . I remember looking at the screen, hoping with all my heart that this baby can grow up healthily, nothing in this world could take her away from me. I felt bad actually when I DID consider an abortion because for my own, but I am glad I didn't! I am truly grateful I didn't do it.. If it wasn't for this baby, I will never ever be able to experience the meaning of life.

Thank You for coming into my life. ^^

久违了！

好久没有上来写东西了。哈哈~

明天就是母亲节！

难过的是，我没有办法陪我妈妈过，开心的是，明年今天我自己也即将庆祝哦。

今年还真是难忘的一年啊。宝宝在我肚子已经30周了~

星期三那天去看医生，看了3D图看到晨蒽的样子了。嘴巴嘟嘟的，像爸爸哦。:D

我的女儿，妈咪和爹地的宝贝。

我和老公的爱女~~~ 想到都开心。

有时候觉得我和老公的爱情故事很神，可是没有想到连怀上孩子也是那么的不可思议。

之前老公就想说：啊！如果我有个兔宝宝几好啊。

结果万万没有想到，真的给我怀上了一只可爱的兔女郎！（eh,兔女郎好像有点色色的）

就连怎么发现自己怀孕，怎么发现宝宝是女的过程都很妙。

感谢上帝那么眷顾。真的，失去了什么上帝一定会从另外一边弥补给你的。

愿上帝的恩典和奇迹继续发生在我们杨家哦。

p/s: 真的好像做梦一样。我已经有自己的家庭了！也即将要成为一个小生命的依赖，然后叫我妈妈了。现在的我啊，可是母性大发哦。嘻嘻嘻嘻。母亲节快乐啦~

总会度过的

最近的我，日子过得有点狼狈。呵呵

不敢告诉身边的人，因为怕他们担心。

这些日子我知道一点也不好过，也委屈了肚子里面的孩子。

有时候看到别人能够出去走走，自己还满羡慕的。

奈何，天意弄人。但是，我却不能因此而气馁!

我相信这些日子终究会过去的。或许哪一天我也会想念呢。

life has been a messed lately, but I will put up my best smile.

I will be strong and I will hold on.. nothing can put me down. :D

Me.. Me.. Me..

Finally, I'm vain enough to post something totally about me ~~ *grins*

I've had this post in my mind for a while now, however, thanks to my laziness ~ I just can't find the right time to blog about it. haha ~ so, here it is:

Five random facts of me

5) I hate balloons. They scared the shit outta me when it burst

4) I love to drink cold milk from a nice clear glass. It makes the milk look nutritious

3) Words can't describe how much I love milk tea.

2) I am a cow. I can sleep and eat the whole day

1) I thank God everyday for my loving husband, family and my dogs. *Not forgetting my daughter who will be arriving on July.*

天马行空

"Creativity is the limit"

在网路上面看到这样的一句话

激起我许多的思考。

人类的极限就在于创意 ~

难怪许多人都告诉我说

去想，天马行空的想！

不要害怕有梦想 ~

对。一个有梦的人才会极力去追寻 ~

我的梦，我的理想原来就这么简单！

我一直抓着不属于自己的理想

现在或许我找到了，找到了一个可以让我发挥的空间。

我不是什么企业家的料

更不是画家作家的料，

我只是一个很平凡的人

我的动力在于：快乐。

一位塔罗牌老师曾经告诉我：能够让你有成就的事，就是在于你能够帮到别人。看到别人开心，那一份就是你的荣誉。

想想，自己确实是这样的人！

我想上天胜任我的这份工作我能够做好。

对自己，我从来没有那么有信心过。

加油！

Massage

Had my first prenatal massage today.

I can't tell you how happy I am to finally get rid of the annoying stiffness somewhere near my spinal cords. It's amazing ~~ but one thing that really annoys me was, my dog whining non stop. (If he sees someone new in the house, he'll go crazy and start doing this high pitch whine which drives me nuts) So, no longer being able to bear his crazy whine, I went outside took the cane and hit him real hard on the leg, on his face as well. This stops him! :D :D

Anyway, this lady was great. A housecall massuer which comes at your convinenece ~

Finally, after weeks long of torturing, I can finally go to bed undisturbed!

p/s: I ate two cup noodles.. and I am still hungry! Need to get some proper food.