新年快乐 ~ 又是一年了。
2010年过的很衰，2011年过的不错，所以希望今年可以更好。
好消息 ~ 我今年7月又要当妈了。
对，一个很让我吃惊的消息。就是又意外的怀上一个龙宝。
家人都很吃惊，因为半年前我才剖腹生了一个兔女儿，一年后又要再生多一个。
大家都很担心我的子宫是否负荷的了，不过我相信上帝，也相信肚子里的宝宝。
其实也很好啊，一次过带大两个宝贝 ~ 年龄相仿其实也很不错。
以前自己蛮羡慕别人有小自己一岁的弟弟/妹妹。哈哈 ~
anyways, 祝自己平安顺利的怀这个龙宝贝咯。
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Anger Management
I need anger management.
I am getting angry easily..
Once I find things wasn't going the way I wanted I get irritated!
God please help me on this.. I don't want to go on like this
I am getting angry easily..
Once I find things wasn't going the way I wanted I get irritated!
God please help me on this.. I don't want to go on like this
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Fuck the world
Fuck it! Fuck it! Fuck it!
Why do I get angry so easily!! why on earth do I have to go through all of these..
For no reason at all I get irritated over one small thing, but yet for stupid DH I have to put on a fake smile, wearing a stupid hat smiling and agreeing to what all the world have to say.
Why am I being so sensitive? why does it come at the end of my pregnancy? Why is everybody giving me a hard time?
Sometimes I wished I wasn't in this situation, I wished to be alone! I want to be alone and enjoy the loneliness, and have my dogs around me. I want to have a cigarette, so I could take things away from my mind. I wished someone could be here with me instead I am being left alone to deal with all the unfamiliar surrounding. I am forced to drive a fucking manual car, forced to take care of another person and being forced to live in a fucking small town where I am bound by directions, cause I don't know which fucking way I have to go.
Fuck it~ fuck the world. Fuck everything. I wished I could go to church, I wished I was back in the goddamn familiar place, I wished I could runaway, and have my daughter in some faraway land. Where nobody knows me and have the whole world searching for me!! Damn all this.. Damn all the fucking thing in this world.
Of all the person, I thought he should understand but instead what he gave in respond is not something I want. As if I cared. I don't fucking give a shit. FUCK OFF
Why do I get angry so easily!! why on earth do I have to go through all of these..
For no reason at all I get irritated over one small thing, but yet for stupid DH I have to put on a fake smile, wearing a stupid hat smiling and agreeing to what all the world have to say.
Why am I being so sensitive? why does it come at the end of my pregnancy? Why is everybody giving me a hard time?
Sometimes I wished I wasn't in this situation, I wished to be alone! I want to be alone and enjoy the loneliness, and have my dogs around me. I want to have a cigarette, so I could take things away from my mind. I wished someone could be here with me instead I am being left alone to deal with all the unfamiliar surrounding. I am forced to drive a fucking manual car, forced to take care of another person and being forced to live in a fucking small town where I am bound by directions, cause I don't know which fucking way I have to go.
Fuck it~ fuck the world. Fuck everything. I wished I could go to church, I wished I was back in the goddamn familiar place, I wished I could runaway, and have my daughter in some faraway land. Where nobody knows me and have the whole world searching for me!! Damn all this.. Damn all the fucking thing in this world.
Of all the person, I thought he should understand but instead what he gave in respond is not something I want. As if I cared. I don't fucking give a shit. FUCK OFF
Fuck Off
Recently my emotional well being has reached a peak whereby I get irritated easily. I don't get along with anybody which I usually do, and I get annoyed easily.
Can somebody please tell me what's wrong? I am coming to the end of my pregnancy, currently 38 weeks, another 2 more weeks, could this be the reason I get irritated easily? I am like a balloon bursting anytime. Oh God, please help me on this!!
I hate it when people bossed me around, I get annoyed when I see this stupid three year old with fucking bad manners who scream and kicked when his parents tell him NO; picking food out of the freshly served dish makes me want to slap his head over and over!! I hate kids with behavior issues, his parents should have discipline him like a dog!!
My tummy is small and everybody is picking on it. SO WHAT? MIL asked me to eat more, everyday she would call and say : eat more, eat more! WTF, excuse me I don't like to stuffed myself like a turkey and I am definitely not like you! She eats like a cow and I am no cow.
Had been arguing with DH. In my mind I have already planned out what I wanted to do in life but one freaking word he just came and crushed it! OK great!!! It's my life and I should be the one in control but instead this monster just invade my life like nobody's business and start bossing me around telling what to do and what not to do! I hate to stuck in this stupid small town, with an old bat and I hate every single thing here!!!!!! fuck it, fuck all this.
God if You are listening, please take all this problem away from me. I hate it when my mind just act like a TNT and like it's gonna explode sooooon!! FUCK EVERYTHING
Can somebody please tell me what's wrong? I am coming to the end of my pregnancy, currently 38 weeks, another 2 more weeks, could this be the reason I get irritated easily? I am like a balloon bursting anytime. Oh God, please help me on this!!
I hate it when people bossed me around, I get annoyed when I see this stupid three year old with fucking bad manners who scream and kicked when his parents tell him NO; picking food out of the freshly served dish makes me want to slap his head over and over!! I hate kids with behavior issues, his parents should have discipline him like a dog!!
My tummy is small and everybody is picking on it. SO WHAT? MIL asked me to eat more, everyday she would call and say : eat more, eat more! WTF, excuse me I don't like to stuffed myself like a turkey and I am definitely not like you! She eats like a cow and I am no cow.
Had been arguing with DH. In my mind I have already planned out what I wanted to do in life but one freaking word he just came and crushed it! OK great!!! It's my life and I should be the one in control but instead this monster just invade my life like nobody's business and start bossing me around telling what to do and what not to do! I hate to stuck in this stupid small town, with an old bat and I hate every single thing here!!!!!! fuck it, fuck all this.
God if You are listening, please take all this problem away from me. I hate it when my mind just act like a TNT and like it's gonna explode sooooon!! FUCK EVERYTHING
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
犯贱的动物
男人都是犯贱的动物。
说什么都是骗人的，如果真的有心的话就不要对我乱发脾气。
怀孕还要受你的LJ罪。你以为你是谁？盖电话就盖饱他！
有种就不要打电话给我，反正现在受苦的是你自己而已。
我自己在这边不懂过的几好！我还没有忘记我一年后的决定。
你这样做只会让我加快那天的来临的。
不要以为我怕你。大不了我自己养大孩子，靠你我自己死的难看 ~
说什么都是骗人的，如果真的有心的话就不要对我乱发脾气。
怀孕还要受你的LJ罪。你以为你是谁？盖电话就盖饱他！
有种就不要打电话给我，反正现在受苦的是你自己而已。
我自己在这边不懂过的几好！我还没有忘记我一年后的决定。
你这样做只会让我加快那天的来临的。
不要以为我怕你。大不了我自己养大孩子，靠你我自己死的难看 ~
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
我的福气
距离上次UPDATE好像已经三个星期多左右了。
现在的我，在老公的家乡SITIAWAN代产 ~ 回来已经一个礼拜多了。
没有老公在身边的日子有点难过。
以前每天晚上都可以看到老公，晚上睡觉有老公陪，其实是一件很幸福的事情。
不过现在的我也不差哦。老公不在身边，我学会了驾车，而且还是手牙的！
我记得以前老公曾经说过，只要学会手牙的车什么车都可以驾的。
因为之前自己不争气，一次车祸过后就不太敢驾车了，所以慢慢的变得很怕。
回来这边以后，为了不让老公失望我决定要尝试驾车。
驾了几天，开始有点熟悉了！只是方向盘没有power steering,有点难转。
但是我可以的！！我一定要学会驾车。
现在的我反而比较担心老公呢~工作的死老头拼命刁难！
真的为难他了。其实啊，很多时候人家一直说男人要体谅女人。
歌词啦，影片啦什么都是在说女人的辛苦。
但是有多少人可以理解一个男人在外打拼的时候那种痛苦呢？
给老板骂的臭头还是得点头，为的只是保护饭碗！
女人在适当的时候就应该体谅一下老公。不要一直埋怨老公不帮忙做家务之类的~
*虽然以前自己有这样子的想法，但是现在要开始改进了*
或是老公觉得累的时候没有办法陪我们去哪里走走，也是可以理解的。
还有就是，当一个男人忘记你所交代的事情的时候也不要生气，或许他们真的只是忘记了。
或许我老土，但我一直觉得男主外，女主内是以前就定下的道理。
所以，当老公在外面打拼的时候，他们所面对的挑战必定比我们多很多。
帮我们挡风遮雨，为的只是我们能够过的好。所以啊！有这样的老公，要好好珍惜~
傻人有傻福。呵呵~或许我就是那个傻人吧。
呆呆的过了23年 ~ 跟一个傻男人过了六年。
期望我们有更多更多的六年，甚至六十年哦！！
现在的我，在老公的家乡SITIAWAN代产 ~ 回来已经一个礼拜多了。
没有老公在身边的日子有点难过。
以前每天晚上都可以看到老公，晚上睡觉有老公陪，其实是一件很幸福的事情。
不过现在的我也不差哦。老公不在身边，我学会了驾车，而且还是手牙的！
我记得以前老公曾经说过，只要学会手牙的车什么车都可以驾的。
因为之前自己不争气，一次车祸过后就不太敢驾车了，所以慢慢的变得很怕。
回来这边以后，为了不让老公失望我决定要尝试驾车。
驾了几天，开始有点熟悉了！只是方向盘没有power steering,有点难转。
但是我可以的！！我一定要学会驾车。
现在的我反而比较担心老公呢~工作的死老头拼命刁难！
真的为难他了。其实啊，很多时候人家一直说男人要体谅女人。
歌词啦，影片啦什么都是在说女人的辛苦。
但是有多少人可以理解一个男人在外打拼的时候那种痛苦呢？
给老板骂的臭头还是得点头，为的只是保护饭碗！
女人在适当的时候就应该体谅一下老公。不要一直埋怨老公不帮忙做家务之类的~
*虽然以前自己有这样子的想法，但是现在要开始改进了*
或是老公觉得累的时候没有办法陪我们去哪里走走，也是可以理解的。
还有就是，当一个男人忘记你所交代的事情的时候也不要生气，或许他们真的只是忘记了。
或许我老土，但我一直觉得男主外，女主内是以前就定下的道理。
所以，当老公在外面打拼的时候，他们所面对的挑战必定比我们多很多。
帮我们挡风遮雨，为的只是我们能够过的好。所以啊！有这样的老公，要好好珍惜~
傻人有傻福。呵呵~或许我就是那个傻人吧。
呆呆的过了23年 ~ 跟一个傻男人过了六年。
期望我们有更多更多的六年，甚至六十年哦！！
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